My ideal lifestyle would be just doing what I want all the time. And that wouldn't work, because I would have to get a job to get moneys and whatnot. So I would need a way to get money magically while just sitting around on my ass!

Also, living in middle-of-nowhere Indiana where the only things around are cornfields and livestock doesn't really help. I would rather be somewhere where I can find things that cater to my interests. At this point, there's not much I can do about that. Oh well.

I just got back from my very first trip to Disneyworld! :D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0dnS0bgaf-o

The black slave centaur in Fantasia disturbs me because of how racist that scene is, wtf. Disney cut it out of the movie and claims it doesn't exist. GOOD OL DISNEY, PROMOTIN EQUALITY.

And other than that, Jessica Rabbit is pretty disturbing because of how hot she is for a cartoon character.

I'm going to be working on classes all summer. I know it's all my fault for procrastinating so long, and I feel like an idiot. I really need to stop this thing where if I don't want to do something, I don't do it. It's not helping me out at all.

I'm pretty sure I'm taking the SAT's this weekend if I can get my accomadations, and I'm really afraid that I'm going to do really bad. Especially on the math part, since I'm not currently taking a math class and I feel like all my math knowledge has been pushed out of my brain.

Also, my family has been driving me so fucking insane. Like, I don't even want to talk to any of them anymore because they're all pissing me off so much. Ugh.

Cheer me up please. :(

Maybe a day. Probably less, because I would probably get scared at night and back home. :'D

For the past couple weeks I've felt really sad and kind of depressed and really lazy and whatnot. Like, I don't want to do anything. I don't know why.

What do you guys usually do when you're upset? :(

I just got back from the hospital in Toledo. It was a loong drive and I'm exhausted.

I saw the Nurse Practitioner there. She spent about 2 hours with us, going over my condition and she showed us a Powerpoint and everything. She determined that I have Developmental POTS and that I have a pretty big chance of growing out of a lot of my symptoms. And she also said that I probably have POTS because I have hypermobility in my joints (meaning that I can bend my fingers and knees and elbows pretty far in the wrong direction) and that means that I also probably have stretchy collogen in my veins. So since my veins are stretchy, they just expand to accomodate more blood and my blood doesn't flow back up through my body. It was pretty interesting to hear this, because nobody has ever pointed to a potential cause of my condition before. She also said that a lot of patients who get POTS around 13 or 14 get a peak in symptoms when they're about 16, which is what happened to me. So this is pretty normal I guess?

She is going to keep in contact with me and she has some medicines that she thinks will help more than the ones I'm on now. She seems to know a lot more than all of my doctors here do, so hopefully she'll help and I will get feeling better. I'm supposed to go back to the hospital in August to see the actual doctor, which I'm kind of looking forward too because he's pretty well-known around the world for treating forms of dysautonomia.

Ugh I always get sick over spring break. I think I have the stomach flu or food poisoning or something because I'm throwing up. Ew. I feel really gross. :(

Oh God I finally got confident enough to post some outfits on the interbuttz. I feel so brave, it's almost like the other day when I was really scared to go ask the lady at the restaurant for a brownie but I DID ANYWAYS. :'D 

http://community.livejournal.com/fatshionista/4208392.html?view=95205128#t95205128

Ughh my family is driving me insane. I kind of wish I could get out of here, but I'm stuck at home.

I used to watch The Lion King on an almost daily basis when I was a kid. It's still my favorite. Scar was such a sexy lion, haha. And Aladdin! I love it. And I loved pretty much any Disney movie from the 80's or 90's that had an animal as a central character, because I wanted to be a lion when I grew up. I also really liked The Land Before Time and Jurassic Park because I thought dinosaurs were the shit, and I still love those movies. Oh, the good old days when kids' movies were really good.

Cell phones, holy shit. I hate it when people text allll the tiiime. During movies, when you're out at a restaurant, etc. omg it's so annoying and rude.

Omg I hate Apple so much but I just got meself a new iPod. What is wrong with meee.

I ran out of room on my old one because I'm an obsessive music listener so now I have a 120GB. I'm currently waiting for all of my songs to transfer to it and it's taking hoursss.

Ohh this is hard.

1. The Lion King
2. Amelie
3. Labyrinth
4. The Princess Bride
5. Either The Rocky Horror Picture Show or umm maybe The Fifth Element. Or does the Star Wars trilogy count as one? :'D

Um hi.

So now I've started homeschool, and I'm already halfway done with my first class. I think I need eight more credits to graduate. If I had stayed at school I would need like 15 more because I was so far behind and stuff. So that's kind of nice.

There hasn't really been anything else new in my life lately. I've been reallly tired and I don't know why, and a lot of symptoms have been worse lately so we're trying to get into this doctor in Ohio who is a specialist in my condition. So far I haven't heard anything back though, and it might take until June to get in. I hope I can, because I've heard a lot of good things about him.

 I have mostly been staying home and being bored to death because I've been so tired. But I did get out to see a production of Sweeney Todd recently and over the weekend I went to see Coraline, which was amazing (though not much like the book). :B

So since I have nothing else to say, I'm off. Goodbye.

Murray! Haha.

People who don't capitalize their letters when they're supposed to be capitalized. :(